Stupidity

Stupidity. Unwilling or incapable of considering the relevant information. 

I hate being called stupid. I hate it if anyone considers me to be stupid. To me there is a difference between acting in a stupid and silly manner, and actually being a person of stupid virtues. Some one of poor learning abilities is different than a comic character in a social setting. 

Indeed the truth hurts and most of us don't want to face it.  A wise man might tell you something like this: "Just because you don't want to believe something, doesn't mean its not true"

I'm sure there's plenty out there who convince themselves something for the sake of keeping their dignity and false sense of their world intact. No body wants to be laughed at and ridiculed, yet so many poke fun at individuals.  Whether intentional or not they are prying at peoples insecurities like an opened wound. 

Good Christians will always encourage us to be nice and sensitive to others. I always dismissed this as a lame and boring approach to treating people. Maybe I was stupid to not consider this argument earlier in life, or maybe I'm just stubborn to listen to others. I find it more satisfying to learn this lesson on my own through a genuine experience. If I was always so gullible to believe everything taught to me would I be a Christian or an Atheist, a republican or a democrat, a liberal or a conservative. Some truths just need to be flipped over and checked under our own individual supervision, and not by popular demand. 

Lost

I wanna give everything to the Lord. But than again I don't. Pride holds me back from admitting my fault. I know repenting even after knowingly sinning isn't quite enough for God's standard of Holy. Kinda makes me not want to be Holy.

I hate Christians some times, and I believe its perfectly normal for people to act this way (normal, not good, but normal). People hate God left and right, all day. The thought behind this is that God challenges us to live up to a higher level. This concept is still a new lesson for me to learn, and I will challenge it till the sun goes down. 

Is it not enough for us to just love God, but not obey him completely? Why does God require us to be so selfless? Is it because he knows more joy will come of it for both him and ourselves, or is it because it displays purity in heart and spirit?

I'm still asking myself, is selfishness evil? And if it is than whats appealing for me not to be evil? Is nothing but joy and peace that you are doing the right thing, pleasing the Lord and pleasing others enough appeal for some body to want to be good and not care about themselves? I think I understand why we shouldn't want to be evil, but a drop of evil and selfishness could produce an interesting balance. I'm trying to challenge and question this truth that's instilled in me, searching for answers and a solution to my dilemma. 

Don't you get so tired of being good all the time that you wanna be a little bad. If that's a demonic spirit, than that's a great excuse for Christians to hide behind. I'm more prone to think humans by design are selfish, and maybe the devil does pry at that selfishness.

 All in all, if I was Adam I wouldn't be pleased to hear God tell me to not eat from the tree of knowledge without giving me an in-depth explanation. Yes, you will surely die is the ultimate explanation, but than why was Eve so easily fooled by the serpent? Couldn't God have given more thought to his explanation to these foreign visitors of his garden? 

I don't find Adam and Eve to be evil people, or even completely foolish people. I almost admire them for being so curious. I find the untamed and rebellious spirit to produce some of the most beautiful works. Think of a world without questions. How many answers do you think you would come across?