Power and Politics

Are we suppose to strive for positions of power? Do we always have to answer to those in authority? How can I become successful and avoid this game of power and politics? Is it possible?

I just want to create art, be successful and own my own company. However, I need people and I need to one day be in an authoritative position, so how is it possible to avoid power at all?

Its frustrating and complicated, but in the end I pray it will all be worth it.

I can not avoid dealing with people.

If I don't get involved, than why am I here at Regent?

Lord right now I want to pray that my plans are according to you. I want to pray that I'm not doing these things with Regent and RUC because of my own personal differences. I pray even if I am, that I learn from this experience of potential mistakes or you stray me away from making the mistakes altogether. Either way, if you're okay with me doing this, than I'm gonna need some tools. I'll need to learn how to submit. I'll need to learn how to convince these people my intentions are pure. And I can't do that alone, I need you Lord to help me here. I don't want to expose these people for being wrong, but a side of me does. I don't wish to ruin them, but Lord its hard for me to just step back and watch. Who am I to be this voice of truth and authority. Make it feel right about what I am doing Lord, and help me not corrupt my intentions. There is this huge possibility of corruption, and I don't want to do something I would regret. Whatever my next step is, actually please just give me guidance. Give me guidance in all I wish to do, with school with RUC with the Founders with church, with Chapel. I'm messing up Lord, all of those things. All of the projects I have a heart to be a part of I'm messing up. And I feel its all because people are stopping me. I don't know how to control them and affect their thinking. And maybe they’re not, and its me, but I fear those who will say I’m not holy or good enough to do these great things at Regent. Maybe its me who feels im not good enough. Maybe I’m letting the devil make me feel I’m not good enough.

People will think this and that about me. I hate what people think about me, you know this. It wouldn’t effect me so much if I didn’t care about my school and was just here getting by, not getting involved. That’s why I hate politics and power. I hate the uncomfortable feeling that people don't like me or that people are trying to find the worst in me. Being under a microscope, in the spot light, with people waiting to see me make a mistake. It’s a deep issue I need you to help me out with PLEASE. I need to get over it in order to do these great things I have a heart for. I don't want to sin right now. I don't want to sin tomorrow Lord. I love having this relationship with you, but I really wish I can do some great things as well. If you're okay with me doing them than please help. If you think I should just chill, waste time and money in my opinion, than I'd actually be okay with that. Help me feel free, because right now I feel completely limited.

Thank You.